Last Monday, October 30, everything going wrong in my life built up to this huge weight I couldn’t carry anymore, and I was having dark thoughts.
Around midnight, I went to the chapel in hopes of getting rid of all the negativity I was feeling. When I realized that the doors were locked, it seemed like the end of the world. The one place I could run to for comfort was closed.
I was crying on the ground when this guy came along and sat with me by the chapel doors. He asked me if we could talk and what was wrong. I told him that everything was wrong, and that to make things worse, the chapel doors were locked.
He said someone could always swipe in through the side door, and he and his friend did just that and let me in.
When I sat down, I felt that I could finally release all the burdens that I had been carrying around.
I felt better being there, being able to talk to God.
To that guy, who went out of his way to make sure I was okay, I now address you directly: whoever you are, thank you. So much.
If I wasn’t able to go inside the chapel and pray and find peace, I don’t know what I would’ve done that night. I was scared and felt helpless, and I can honestly say that you saved my life that night. In every way. I realized that if a stranger could care for me, so should I, and I wanted to get better. And I have.
A week later, I’ve been to personal counseling and have been getting help. I’m getting there slowly and surely, but I wouldn’t have been able to without you. You have no idea how much you asking me what was wrong meant to me.
That night, you were wearing a pom pom beanie. It was probably blue, red, and white, and you were wearing sweats, probably gray. You were tall with brown hair, about 6’ 2,” and your friend was a girl with black hair, around 5’0”.
You were coming from the library side of the chapel. When you opened the door, someone was playing the piano. I was wearing a black hoodie and gray sweatpants.
If this was you, please let me be able to say thank you in person. I don’t remember your name, but I would like the chance to be able to.
If you are this person, please contact the following number:
If you or anyone you know needs help, the following sources are available:
The Providence College Personal Counseling Center located in Lower Bedford Hall.
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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:
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Text HELLO to 741-741
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